My wife said she missed my writing…so here goes.
I haven’t had as easy access to a computer as before. Of course I’ve got my laptop at work, but don’t have internet service at my new apartment. We decided that another $25 a month just wasn’t a needed expense right now. So if I don’t stay late and take the time to create a post, then it just doesn’t get done. As you can tell, I haven’t been staying after hours to do any writing.
Actually this is Saturday and I’ve come into the office to research some areas and real estate in the DFW area. There sure is a lot to choose from. I’ve found my cousins address who lives in Fort Worth. It’s along way from where I’m at. I’m going to try to contact him when I get back from Christmas vacation.
I cannot express how much I miss my family, particularly Laurie. I guess one can really take their spouse for granted more than I thought. I don’t think you can understand how much you need your partner until you have to stay away from them for awhile. But I guess that’s good in a way. I sure do appreciate her more. She has the hard part in all of this. She gets to stay behind and take care of the family and house while I go off on a new adventure. Doesn’t seem quite fair. I am so thankful for her. I’m truly blessed.
I haven’t had a chance to “try out” any new churches yet, but I’m going to visit one this weekend. Several friends back in Memphis recommended a church call “The Village” to me. Kind of a different name.
“Trying out” a church. That just sounds weird to me. It’s kind of like “trying on” a part of the body of Christ. The implications seem a little out of place. It’s as if I’m going to try to find a new shirt. If I were looking for a new shirt, what would I ask myself? Does it fit well? Does it look good on me? Do the colors work well? Will it go with my pants? I like button down collars and this one has non-buttoned collars. How will I fell with non-buttoned collars? It has a square tail, implying it’s made to be worn outside the pants. I usually like to tuck my tail. My shirt tail that is. This shirt could really change my whole appearance. It might look like I’m trying to appear younger by wearing a shirt like this. Am I going through a mid-life crisis? I’ve seen guys wearing shirts like this unbuttoned altogether. That is with a colored tee underneath. A white tee would just look lazy. You think I could wear this unbuttoned? I think maybe I’m asking too many crazy questions again.
You know, used to, when you went to buy a new shirt, you would go to a department store and there would always be a lady to help you pick it out. It was usually a good looking young girl that wanted to work in the Men’s Department to meet good looking young guys. It was a little intimidating for me, but I always mustered up enough courage to ask their opinion. Amazingly that as far as I ever got cause they never seemed interested in anything else other than making the sale with me. Does that mean I wasn’t good looking enough? sigh Now I go to Wal-Mart or Target, and I’m entirely on my own. No wonder I feel a little insecure about this.
The problem with asking all these questions is that they are all focused on me and my insecurities. I think sometimes we may be shopping for churches that way as well. Maybe the question should be, “how do I fit in at this church.” But I’m not sure that question won’t take you to the same place. Anyway, I’m looking for a new church. And I don’t want my decision to be solely based on me and my needs. (When I say “me”, I really mean me and my family.) My individual needs should probably take a back seat to how can I help fill the needs and mission of a church. That’s what I want to be asking. Pray for me that I can do that.
